curious-me's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Hello emotional roller coaster I look tired today. I am tired today. Every night I have been going to bed past 11:30 which is late for me. My alarm goes off at 6:55 (supposed to be 6:30 but I�ve pushed it back this week). So I�m not getting my 8 hours of sleep. Getting up every morning has been H � E � double hockey sticks. I am all over the board emotions wise. One moment I am like FUCK IT, life is too short to worry about test results just be positive and live how I wanna live. Next moment I�m like HOLY FUCK I am going to DIE. I will probably get the worst case scenario next week and have a month to live. Yah I�m dangerously close to the edge if you couldn�t tell. As I�ve said many times throughout this journal I�ve never been one to enjoy limbo land. I�ve told no one except Keith about this. I haven�t even alluded to the fact I am going through anything to anyone. I�m not sure if that fa�ade will crack this Saturday while hanging out with C and T. Sometimes we get deep and serious but more often we are shallow and just like to laugh and have a good time. I ain�t gonna bring the group down with my worries if that is the case. Alright I am going to go bury myself in music until it�s time for torture (phones). I�ve been listening to all Michael Bolton songs. He seems to be my go-to guy for soothing my weary soul. Yah that sentence is lame but it made me laugh so I�m keeping it! Calm blue ocean. I got home after work, did some dishes, made dinner and chillaxed. I decided I wanted chips later tonight so I forced myself to walk the 20 minutes (roundtrip) to the grocery store and buy them. I also bought a cheesecake dessert for tomorrow's dessert (ie T's b-day cake). I toyed with making dessert but that wasn't gonna happen. Keith called me earlier and asked if I was going to stay up and wait for him. I said yes. As I walked tonight I felt lighter. Happier. I was....giddy. I then realized it was because my husband of SEVEN years called me and basically asked me to wait up so we could see each other. Giddy. I can't stop smiling when I think of him. I guess all those times I want to kill him pale in comparison. That's good to know! Now I am going to waste a little time here on the world wide web as I am recording a movie on tv - a stupid girl movie I would never rent or download. But I will sit thru if I can fast forward commercials - which is why I have to waste some time now! Giddy..heh. 8:57 p.m. - 2012-04-27 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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